Is Love Just a Hello and Good-bye?

Bismillah..

Today, the fifth day that I've passed without his word. After something was happen between us, where his friends start asking about the relationship between us, he left me, silently, without any words, without any good bye.

I feel so sad with what was happening, but what I can say to myself is, just prepare to loose him. May be this is just a first sign that bring me to another step of my life, that I have to go day by day without any word or message by him.

Ya Allah, please give me a strength.

Please Allah, I need him, because he had taught me to love You. I need him, to whisper to my ear on Your word.

Do I love him?
I really dont have any idea about my feelings towards him, but what i can say is, i need him.

What my BFF said is, "Dia belum mampu menghalalkan awak untuk dirinya."

Is it?
Or he dont want to give any hope and answer to me, and things become worst when he start to ignore me, after his friends start asking about our relationship.

Oh Allah, please show us your miracle, please Allah, put me in his heart, but dont make my love in his heart higher than loving You..

From day to day, is love just a hello and good bye?

Basi

He just send me a message
But my heart that suppose to be happy
Has no feelings
Where is the feelings?

I accept of what ever he want in the future
But I really hope that he will not make
My feelings is
BASI..

Test of Life

Bismillah..

Alhamdulillah, just finished lots of programmes.

Appreciation Night(where I have to assist the APM, the newbie, beside settle down the invitation of 8 societies), Annual General Meeting (where I took part in new bearers and I also had to present the Annual Report Programme), Skill Class Programme at Orphanage house (where I am the Secretary of Programme and become the 'councellor' in that programme), (just a participant with a task to make a report of the visit), Ziarah Maydaniyyah at Islamic Art Museum Hospital Orang Asli Visit and Eidul Fitri Celebration with the patients (where I am the PIC), and the next weekend is Tilawah and Nasyeed Competition- National level among Orang Asli (also the PIC from IIUM) and Islamic Practical Teaching in conjunction with Eidul Adhha Mahabbah Project at Pos Lebir (where again I am the Secretary II).

I dont know what to say when some people say that I am not busy actually, just pretending I am a busy person. And what made me more disappointed was when some people said that actually COMRADEAN is not busy as well, they still have time so that we can give them more works to do.

Actually, for your information, COMRADEAN have lots of things to do, they are also students, having assignments, discussion, but the problem of these people (COMRADEAN) is they don't know how to refuse when people ask them a hand.

It's ockay COMRADEAN, I still believe that all of you are kebal enough to accept what people said. And for them, please try to search for others, not depending on COMRADEAN only, because COMRADE is famous enough and lots of people want to collaborate with us (haha, ayat taleh blah)..

Dont just depending on COMRADEAN..

The Joyous Eid

Alhamdulillah, we had reached Ramadhan and now, we are in Syawwal, a month of full joyous, a season of joy. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives us a chance to finish Ramadhan and reach Syawal. Thus, lets make this Raya Celebration apart of our worship, by avoiding any wrong doing and maksiat. InsyaAllah.

And now, what I hope to do is, to keep the spirit of Ramadhan inside my heart, thus I can improve my ibadah, my heart, and my soul to be better then before.

Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me opportunity to know the 'Immovable Guy', he gave me a strength, and opened my eye to embrace Islam. He made me realized that Islam is not just a religion, but also a way of life. He made me realized that Allah is always with me, looking at me, and to left all things to Allah, Hasbiallahu wani'mal wakiil..

Thats make me pray to Allah, in every prayer, this 'Immovable Guy' will be my ZFM (zauj fil mustaqbal) insyaAllah. what else I want in my ZFM , since he has a very high faith to Allah? It is more than enough for me.

Besides thanking this guy, actually I have to thank Allah, coz He is the One who actually send this guy to me, to give me hidayah, to increase my love to Allah, to have a faith in Allah, to left all things to Allah. Alhamdulillah..

Remembering the needy

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

Alhamdulillah, Thanks to Allah who gives me lots of opportunities to know very good person that can lead me practicing the real Islam. [there are lots of Muslim not practicing Islam, so do not judge Islam by seeing the Muslims=p]

Ya Allah, please give me Hidaayah. And please make me still in the right path, ameen~

I just have a short-not too deep-conversation with one of the famous Al-Aqsa Friends Societiy's leader, Muslim. I questioned him lots. And lots of that questions are the collection of questions that not been answered by the 'Immovable Guy'. Hahah, i called him an 'Immovable Guy' because of his steadfastness in uphold his mission, his target. And I am the unstoppable force that always force him. [And Muslim said a big collision will occur, like a big bang, hee. But i think i have to take note his warn.]

Ockay, back to the topic. About my conversation with that guy. He is a Palestinian. And of course, i have lots of things to ask him. It was so sad to know that his uncle cum best friend was died, his live while living under occupation, sometimes they cannot go out of their house about many days. It was so sad to hear his story.

I remember when I was in my Leadership class, one of my classmate [also a Palestinian] tell us about himself. He was arrested by the criminal Zionist soldier and after he was free, he came to Malaysia to further his studies. Then, he ask us to pray his brother's safety, because the Israeli make a promise to free his brother at the end of month. And he also told us how they [the criminal zionist soldier] beat his body mercilessly.

And now, i am in a dilemma, when Muslim told me that it is not worth the time I spend, to read the book that the 'Immovable Guy' suggested me to read. The famous book entitled 'The International Jews' by Henry Ford. Hurmm.. What do you think?

As a conclusion, we have to put our emphaty and symphaty to them, and that will make us quite prepared with what will happened, coz i can assure you, there are no safe country anymore.

Happy Eidul Fitri

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious and the most Merciful.

Alhamdulillah, i will start blogging in my new blog, and i choose this Eidul Fitr to reopen this blog, as a symbol of back to the fitrah. InsyaAllah.

So, friends, how was your Ramadhan? Hopefully, last Ramadhan give deep plus good impact to us, and bring us back to fitrah, which means a truthfully heart, like a babies heart. No jealousy, no bad deeds, all harmonies, salaam.. It is what we call Islam actually, right? =)

And what I hope [and I know all of you have the same wish] that to have the spirit of Ramadhan till the end. InsyaAllah.

In conjunction with Eidul Fitri, i take this opportunity to wish all of you Eid Mubarak, and hope all of us get blessings from Allah, InsyaAllah. Let us forgive and forget.

Farewell Ramadhan and Rejoice Eid!